Do not feed my child

Seriously, fucking do NOT.  Especially when you know full well he has food intolerances.  Especially right after you’ve asked me if the strawberry jam would be a problem and I’ve said YES.  Not to mention margarine which has goodness knows what in it (there is only 1 brand that is ok) and the fact that almost all bread contains icky preservatives.

I went over to TBB to check on him and saw a tell-tale breadcrust in front of him (he doesn’t currently eat crusts).  I asked where it came from and he told me he’d had some jam sandwich.  I left it at that at the time, and today asked him how he obtained said sandwich.  He said he asked T if he could have one, she said yes, so he took one and ate it.  Fucking awesome.

Bear in mind also that I had brought along several different things that he CAN eat, with plenty for everybody, as I always do.  Unfortunately at 5, TBB doesn’t yet get that he can’t eat certain things even if he wants to.  He knows he shouldn’t have it, but the drive to eat it is greater than his knowing not to.

He has been an absolute turd today.  Completely argumentative and silly.  We left basketball 1/2 way through because he decided he didn’t want to play anymore and would rather muck around with one of the kids’ younger brothers.  His response to my every request has been either “no” or “why”.  I should’ve dropped him off at T’s this morning.

I hope he sleeps tonight.

2nd FETiversary

Today is 2 years since I had the little frozen 6 day old blast transferred that became TTG. It seems so far away but at the same time I can’t believe it’s been 2 years already. Weird.  I’m so very glad he’s here.

Mother of the Year Award coming my way

Damn I suck.  We recently bought the boys (well, TBB mostly for now) a trampoline as an early Christmas present.  TBB gets some trampoline instruction in some of the classesthat he does, and it’s a great excess energy burner.

TTG has enjoyed crawling on it, and sitting on it with me while we get a very gentle bounce going.  Both kids were having a crawl on it a couple of hours ago.  They were also playing with clothespegs, have a lovely time. 

TBB decided to get down.  TTG was flat on his tummy near the edge, looking over.  I was right there.  Right fucking there.  Next thing I knew, in slow motion TTG went forward in a somersault, over the edge, and landed on the ground (on a piece of the box actually). 

He cried.  I cried.  I picked him up carefully (yes I know about spinal injuries, he needed to be moved away from the dogs).  I called DP.  Then I called an ambulance.  I couldn’t remain calm.  My actions were calm, but my voice was not, oh no, it was not.  I could barely get the words out.

By the time the ambulance arrived TTG and I had both calmed down.  I realised he still had a grip on his clothespeg.  He seemed fine.  The paramedics checked him over in the driveway and agreed that he seemed fine.  We could go to hospital if we wanted to, but they didn’t deem it necessary, nor did I.  They went over what to watch out for (with a climber we have been there many times before), then retired to their vehicle to do paperwork.

They came back inside about 15 minutes later and re-checked TTG.  He had already been climbing on a chair in the meantime.  He’s fine.  Me, not so much.  I’ve been dosing both of us with homeopathic arnica (for injury and shock).

He was just about to go for a nap when it all happened, and I’ve had to keep him awake.  The excitement was enough for a while, but he’s just had a BF and a bit of a nap.  Now to wake him up………

Communication

In the last few days TTG has started shaking his head “no” and it’s adorable!  We don’t generally say “no” to him, preferring to use words that give him a little more information such as “yucky” or “not for babies” or “hot” or whatever.  He’s shaking his head if offered food or a toy that he doesn’t want, and he’ll point to the food/toy that he does want.  Just so cute.  He also does it if he’s touching something he knows he shouldn’t, like the tv cabinet.

He’s made up his own sign for “tired” – he pats his head.  He’s been doing this for maybe a month.  I’ve always stroked his head/hair as he’s gone to sleep so I’m guessing this is where it’s come from.  He hasn’t used any “real” signs yet.

The day he started walking he also started stacking blocks too.  I remember reading about Mrs Spock’s boy doing the same a while ago and thinking it would never happen.

And it looks like we may be slowly on our way out of a potty pause, which is nice!  He’s still BFing a heap, and still being worn daily as well, really getting into backwrapping now and loving it.

Walking!!!

TBB walked at 13 months.  It would have been only days after he turned 13 months.  He was always impatient though, he would get annoyed in his sleep because he was trying to crawl and couldn’t yet.  TTG is a bit cruisier in this regard.  He’d been standing alone occasionally, and could walk along while pushing a thing on wheels, and loved standing up then hurling himself at me, or at the lounge, or down the slippery dip.  No interest in walking alone though.

Until tonight, the day before he turns 14 months.  He was standing up holding the coffee table when all of a sudden he just walked off.  Crazy!  He went a few steps then crashed, but it was so cool to see.  He did it a bit more (with camera of course), then got tired and cranky.

He’s been tired and cranky a bit lately, more teeth, separation anxiety again, and now he’s sick as well. 

I remember TBB having a very very long bout of separation anxiety, but TTG seems to be having a couple of shorter bouts.  I’m not expecting much sleep tonight given that he’s sick, and am on the watch for croup.

Why do bad things happen?

I found out yesterday that one of my beautiful MAers had her baby boy, too soon for him to survive.    I’ve known J for a few years now, and she’s been through so much, losses, surgery, a very difficult pg & birth, and now she’s lost her baby boy.  It just isn’t fair.

Profile

I love TTG’s profile.  I always kiss the bridge of his nose – it still looks just as it did on ultrasound.

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Wow.

How could this even happen???

Why B@by Bj0rns are not great

This article sums it up rather well.  I’m not an Erg0 fan either, preferring the Pikkol0 as my SSC of choice, or a good woven wrap, sometimes a MT, but the point is there.